It has been a long time since I have posted a Blog. It’s not that I have not been writing – I have. Life
has thrown me several curve balls the past few years. I write at times when I am happy, sad, desolate, reminiscing, excited, ill, hopeful – I think you are getting the picture? I love to write. I keep my written pieces in a folder in Word. I will review them at times and I amaze myself at my state of mind when I write certain pieces or about certain topics. Like WOW – why didn’t I share this? This may have helped someone else who may be feeling like I am?
A lack of self-confidence over the past 10+ years has prevented me from doing many things, including, sharing my creative writing. My lack of self-worth has been debilitating at times. I allowed circumstances in my life to continue – so only I am to blame. But, when one’s self-worth is gone ….it is hard to even function let alone allow others into your personal chaos. By posting my Blogs I felt would be allowing the outside world into my mess. I did not want anyone else to enter into the sadness of my private, lonely world.
My main goal was staying in survival mode until things could change for the better. Writing helped me to survive. No matter what I wrote – I was at peace when writing. Several things have transpired in my life in 2020. I feel I found “me” again. The “me” I lost so many years ago. The quirky “me” that makes me who I am.
Recent events in my life have made me stronger – bolder – and are helping me to heal. I recently learned that I make an impact in the life of others. Someone actually asked me if I knew the impact I had on others and those around me – I answered honestly, that I did not. I mean, seriously, meeeeee? Who am I? But, thanks to that one person – I learned that I do make a positive impact just by being myself. The realization of that has helped me tremendously. It has taught me that I will be OK. I will make it. I’ve got this. I owe that person a debt of gratitude! I hope if the person I am talking about ever gets a chance to read my Blog they realize the impact they had on ME. Thank you so very much!
Today, I decided to write this Blog and will slowly be adding my written pieces from the past few years. Written pieces that I had planned to post when I first started this Blog in 2019. I now know I can post in confidence. I look forward to your comments – feel free to reach out to me.
As you go through Life …… there are things you will learn about yourself that will be so awesome to your self-worth, self-confidence, and self-awareness …..so advantageous to who you are – that you can’t help but smile. J
Life in Words 